Fez commented on one of my blogs asking why I haven't written in a while as he can relate to me. I have no idea who Fez is. Maybe he's actually a fan (that makes one!), maybe he's one of my friend's just playing around, but either way he motivated me to write some more. Funny how the slightest of nudges can have such an impact. This one's for you...Fez!
I have no excuse as to why I stop writing randomly. It's not that I run out of things to say I just get lazy. If you know me I never run out of things to say! We all have things to say, I'm sure you all could easily fill up a 'blog' as well if you wanted to, but I guess I'm the only one with the time (aka: no life) to do so.
Seriously, these days I have no life but the gym. I'm there 5 days a week for about 2.5 hours at a time, plus I play basketball on Saturdays which leaves me with next to no time at all for a social life. But that's ok, I've been social enough, it's time to get big! I'm up to about 180 lbs, which is like a 10 lb gain of muscle (I hope). I feel great. Lately I'm back to that guy who's always happy, feeling good about everything, nothing really bothering me. It’s truly such a great feeling and everybody should be here. I’ll welcome you with open arms when you get here.
I was talking to a friend who was kind of where I was a few weeks ago, trying to find somebody to compensate for their lack of confidence/self-esteem. She was down on not being able to find someone and I told her to work on herself first, to be content with herself and that she shouldn’t be looking for someone to fix herself, that she should fix herself first and then find someone to augment her life, not to correct it (run on sentence, call the grammar police). It was nice to be back in a position where I could help people, because my mind is finally pretty clear these days! We all want to be with somebody, its human, its natural, its pathetic(kidding), but we need to make sure we’re doing it for the right reasons. Everybody prefers someone who’s in tune with themselves and who’s confident (not arrogant), so get yourself there, and be patient, and you’ll surely find that dream guy/girl/pet dog (if you plan on being single forever).
If you’re feeling down about yourself, I urge you to hit the Gym. It’s such an uplifting feeling to be working on yourself. It boosts your confidence, makes you stronger, and you start to look better (at least the man in the mirror agrees with me on that one, not sure about anybody else). And yes I totally flex in the mirror when I get home from the gym.
Here’s a random FB quote I made when I was having one of my moments (I feel like it’s legendary, and I’ll be quoted long after I’m gone….doubts but one can wish):
“I am a work in progress. I will always be. Never have I claimed to be perfect; never have I claimed to be satisfied with myself, and I won't ever be. I will never get to where I want to get to and be complete, because where I want to get to is constantly evolving and as I improve myself, I will set the bar that much higher, always a little out of reach, so I never rest, I never settle. Perhaps along the journey, maybe somewhere along the way, others will be satisfied with me, but I won't be, I'll keep pushing, that's what life is about, constantly bettering yourself. Never settle!” -Me
Thanks for the motivation Fez, whether you meant it or not :)
See ya!
Wow im honored !! lol Im glad i motivated you!! dude ! i got to hit the gym i have not been there in the longest time years ?. and relationships lets just say looking for something worth while. You're right though, hopefully i can be where you are at, and be happy with myself. Thats a good quote, im glad i stumbled across your blog dude you gotta keep writing ! Fez
ReplyDeleteHey Fez, Thanks for commenting its always appreciated!
ReplyDeleteWith regards to the gym, its true when they say the hardest thing about the gym is getting there, but once you're there for the first time I think you'll get hooked, it happened to me! Try to find a good workout buddy if you can, I have an awesome one (or 2)!
Oh Man if you could only see how BIG i am lol you wouldnt say that. Hey Narmi whats going on with your recent post i didnt want to say anything there but i usually read your blog and it gives me hope but your recent post seemed like something i wrote ? whats wrong ? Fez.
ReplyDeleteDespite how big you may be, when you get to the gym, when you dedicate yourself you will see improvement. The important thing is to look back when you're there. Don't look at the lengthy road you may have ahead, keep looking back to see how far you've progressed, and keep using that as motivation. I know multiple people that shed 40+ lbs and went from looking like half melted marshmallows to looking like athletes. It can be done. The question is, how bad you want it?
ReplyDeleteAnd with regards to my recent post, life is a rollercoaster, we all have some ups and downs. The nice thing about a down is it gives you momentum to shoot up even stronger than before! I wrote that after speaking to a friend who ran into somebody that I use to matter to, and it struck an emotional cord. But hope is not lost, I have hope, I have faith, I guess it's just an ego thing (wow I have an ego?) that you want somebody to remember you because you once mattered to them so much and they matter(ed?) to you. My elevator went to the ground floor, I can get off and stay there, or ride it back up, and I ain't getting off :)
No No you really dont know how big i am ! lol plus i have knee problems and well, currently if i were to tell you my situation you would forget all your problems. Im highly educated = jobless , my 5 year relationship ended because i was an emotional disaster, my own family lives in the same city as me and well they dont even like me being around. so really if someone has a reason to get off on the ground floor it would be me.
ReplyDeleteYou felt that way because someone ran into your ex ? who cares... obviously you know she is living, you should be glad that she has nothing to do with you anymore. My ex.... is my cousin i HAVE to see her every so often, and i have to "act" like im so perfectly fine and happy and everything is going as planned. Dude i act like im still working for P&G and loving London. Man even my fam is messed up, i want to move back , and you're absolutely right , life IS roller coaster... Fez